It's Easier Not to Know

Maybe it’s just me or those that work in social services, but I often wish I didn’t know about half the issues I know of. If I really think about it, I have to take that statement back. I really do want to know about them because I want to help or at least point people in the right direction towards help, but I hold strong on the idea that it’s a lot easier not knowing.

It never seems like I know what to do. I sigh at the overwhelming nature of the projects. I sigh at the people that I think should select the project like it’s no big deal. I sigh at the ideas that it’s taken a couple of years of me to embrace towards the marginalized when new people I meet don’t embrace them the same. The sighs are a result of me trying to pass on responsibility to others.

Well, I’m coming to the conclusion that I need to man up and face the responsibility to do my part. I chose to be the guy that leads the organization that attempts to put things back together for others. I know I don’t have to know how to do everything, just be present in the tension.

We have a choice to know or not to know.

I’m chosing to know. I hope I always choose to Know the issues people are facing.

I need to learn how to channel the frustration better.